I am not having the best day, I am still at work feeling defeated.
I just want to go home and hibernate.
For so many years I thought I was fighting my anxiety but only this year the horrible realisation is that I have been doing the opposite, I have been feeding it.
I was aware of some safety behaviours but not in depth. After researching I am aware that most day to day things I do is in fact a safety behaviour.
I have done this for years, is there a way out for me?
I always thought I would beat this by fighting and acknowledging what it is.
But the reality is I have multiple fears that are clearly not defined.
I know I need to talk to someone, someone professional.
It’s so easy to share things with strangers behind a keyboard and those who relate to what you’re saying with no judgement.
I’m not having to face anyone.
Some days I’m having a good day and seeing clearly, I read through blogs and support and advise other anxiety sufferers. I should be taking my own advice sometimes.
I dislike talking to family and friends around my anxiety. I feel ashamed and a burden.
I don’t want to worry about what they think.
It’s so easy to let everything out on here.
So thank you for letting me and for reading.